_________ ________ ________ _______ _______ ____ _____ ) -__) __( __( - ) ) (/ / / \ _(__ _(__ \ | \ / |____| \__ (_ ( - \ \__(\ \ ______tREMOR)_____) )______\)_______\ ______/_______/ /_____\______ ( voice phone: +43-1-8928997 =ReeBoK= reebok@eleet.iddc.via.at ) \ Severin-Stephan Kittl - Hollergasse 27/19 - A-1150 Vienna/Austria / `-----------------------------------------------------------------' .oOo.....................................................................oOo. Welcome to my 4th poetry file in 1996. It includes some poetry and lyrics from me written or finished in the last time. All written words are (c) 1996 by Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) and have not to be republished in any way without a written permission of the author! At the end of this file you will find 3 German poems, my first try into German poetry. For those who can read (only?) German... I entitle this collection " abstract " ... .oOo.....................................................................oOo. besides ~~~~~~~ (c) 19.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) by strange illusion she is sitting beside me besides I drunk too much by strange feelings she is sitting besides she is an illusion by strange taste she is kissing me from beside by strange emotion she is watching me from the wrong side by strange memories she was kissing me besides she didn't know by strange vision I am sitting beside myself besides reality by strange truth I was leaving myself besides that all I have gone mad all beside my life .oOo.....................................................................oOo. she was kissing me ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (c) 19.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) she said "taste me" and I kissed her and she was kissing me and I said "tastes good" by kissing her and she said "don't stop" and I said "never" and kissed her again and she was kissing me and I kissed her face and she said "I love you" by kissing me while I thought "I don't love you" but she said "kiss me" and I said "sure" but I thought "I don't want to" by kissing her and she was kissing me and I said "bye" and she was watching me and then she cried .oOo.....................................................................oOo. calling intelligence ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (c) 19.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) names numbers 1 - 2 - 3 letters formed words and names followed by numbers sorted and registered places streets and avenues small and big cities towns and villages and some in bolt doctors engineers workers simple people or studied minds white, black, yellow, red and I don't know from here and far away some known most never seen all together but each for itself without ranking but still in order unprejudieced and without fear and then you see you even can learn how it should be by reading the phonebook .oOo.....................................................................oOo. 23:23 ~~~~~ (c) 19.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) 23:23 just numbers? just time! it's late this side of the globe I should already sleep but I'm thinking 'bout the things that happened today 23:23 11:23 pm you may say at your place but it's not too late to remember the things that happened today red light is breaking in into the halfdark room digital numbers in a digital time to make me think 'bout the moments that happened today took me by surprise some by anger others with smile 23:24 11:24 pm you think now another minute passed but this one will be remembered everytime you read this good night .oOo.....................................................................oOo. between ~~~~~~~ (c) 20.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) golden touch, your life a lie couldn't learn, but tried to fly tried to like the world, the whole but destroyed instead a doll some alcohole to clean the wounds maybe to much, see moons moons moons black on white just turned it over hated lonelyness without a lover a book with pages written full no hype - drugs sucks - no hype, not cool a freezing smell from outdoors side 'bout what you're proud, what is pride a flower frozen deep in ice you like to hear and waste your lies the bottle empty, world by delay still on your way and still astray .oOo.....................................................................oOo. don't get me wrong ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (c) 17.+20.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) I believe in a lot of things, and then I don't I have different views in different moments the things I say make a different sense when you would know the meanings I hence I know what I want, and then I deny sometimes I know, sometimes I don't know why I may hate life, but then I find it tough I can take it for serious, and next time I laugh you may call me weird, I say that's my name that's how I feel it, that's how I am .oOo.....................................................................oOo. I've been fanciful ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (c) 20.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) I've been standing up by sundowning I've been living by night I've been dreaming by moonlight I've been sleeping by the morning I've been freezing by sunlight I've been ill by health I've been swearing by lie I've been living by illusion I've been waking up by accident I've been hiding by life I've been drunken by feelings I've been seeing you by memories I've been lost by myself I've been talking by misunderstanding I've been crying by heartbreak and then I've been found by you .oOo.....................................................................oOo. to near to touch ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (c) 29.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) I am sitting on my bed I am dreaming with open eyes dreaming of love the eternal love seems so near but I can't touch it I can't touch it it's so near but so far away the love the eternal love while I am sitting here dreaming with open eyes you are sitting there it seems so near but I can't touch you I can't touch you your're so near but you're so far away like my love my eternal love you are my love my eternal love eternal love love .oOo.....................................................................oOo. my eyes ~~~~~~~ (c) 29.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) colors shapes shadows blue sky green gras and flowers in all colors it is good to see them it is good to know them and it is hard to miss them I am watching them but how long will I have time to to see the world is important I saw it all my life it is good to see it it is good to know it and it would be really hard to miss it I wonder how long it takes since you forget all the things you saw I don't want to miss it all I don't want to miss it I don't want to I don't want don't want no! .oOo.....................................................................oOo. panic ~~~~~ (c) 29.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) did you ever feel the walls closing it and you saw no escape in the room without doors where you entered but never came out did you ever feel the snow freezing your face and you saw no goals in the white painted winterlandscape where you walked through but never came out did you ever see the sun burning your eyes and you saw no dark point on the sky without clouds where you've been flying through but never came out did you ever fear the dark night been lying alone in your bed and dreaming your nightmares where you've been haunting through but never came out did you did you ever feel panic panic! real panic! did you .oOo.....................................................................oOo. 3 times sicker than 2 times before ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (c) 1.March 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) making friends shaking hands but depends on common sense what a life who'll arive kids and wife are open knifes fucking game in Gods name who's to blame always the same life aint fun know that one take a gun life is done .oOo.....................................................................oOo. misunderstanding ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (c) 5.March 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) everything I said was misunderstood everytime I told it mistaken all my life misunderstood like talking in the woods dedicated to my life makes no sense like talking to false friends cruzify death of life start to pray like talking the wrong day everything I said was misunderstood everytime I told it everything I thought confused me everytime I tried it Shut up man! Shut up! I can't hear it anymore! .oOo.....................................................................oOo. where time stood still ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (c) 5.March 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) several foreigners have been standing infront of a cross it was definatly not to hear what they've been talking about suddenly a man in white cloth reached around bread and wine the strangers have all been eating and drinking of it when finally a man focused me and said: "welcome to the eternity" then I realized the first time that I must be dead I entered the land where time stood still and became a stranger myself .oOo.....................................................................oOo. midsummer somewhere somewhen ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (c) 5.March 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) gentle tripples the horse "nice flowers" Mrs. Meyers says a child pleasant infront of the house playes a cat is hunted by a dog and Peter is sitting on the roof a midsummer evening somewhere somewhen Peter with his guitar on the roof is sitting a gentle horse in circles tripples around the flowers this evening smell well and a dog is lying under the big tree sleepy the child refuses not to go to bed the cat on the tree is cleaning itself and Peter on the roof a melancholic melody playing a midsummer night somewhere somewhen the sun by the moon replaced in the air a cool breeze and tonight it wont rain (remembering the last midsummer days) .oOo.....................................................................oOo. intuitive ~~~~~~~~~ (c) 7.March 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) intuitive assholes rule this world fuck us all up with their intuitive stupidity born to be an intuitive piece of shit and intuitive sick of themselves they come to get intuitive our money and they are intuitive living in big houses driving intuitive big fat cars and intuitive don't care about anyone else except other intuitive assholes but only to fuck them up intuitive 'cause only the biggest motherfucker survives to shit intuitive on us all .oOo.....................................................................oOo. (untitled) (c) 1993 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) we got the deathtrap we got the elimination we are those who understand we are the cruzification morning blood is on the skies silked memories died there where have not been silent cries there the angels gore sighted breath and evil death the god you obey is dead and when you can't believe my words you fool! you'll follow him where nothing is can nothing be and when you die you wont be free no better world no peaceful land just nothingness and you feel blind killed emotions killed your life killed your god killed no survivers death dead you die! (written in 1993 when my mother died, I found it now by cleaning up one of my rooms and decided to publish it, as it has been a very dark time for me back then... I just re-lived all the things when I read this poem and saw all the memories in my mind, and then I cried, but it is ok now, the memories will keep it alive and so I remember THE most important person in my life, my mother, she was allways around when I needed someone and then one day she died, you just know what you have (had), when you lost it.) .oOo.....................................................................oOo. beautiful world ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (c) 08.03.1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) I like this beautiful world built on cries and lies you've been told isn't this a beautiful world where they turn the sense of every word and if you didn't fuck up someone today then go for it, do it now 'cause tomorrow this someone maybe would fuck up you this isn't a game that we play my dear, this is real life and if you're not strong enough to fight remember: noone matters for your cries I like this beautiful world where you can fall without finding hold isn't this a beautiful world where you can't believe the things people told .oOo.....................................................................oOo. rorrim ~~~~~~ (c) 11.03.1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) I am standing infront of myself and I am smiling into my face I am looking up at the sky a voice vispers "everyone has to die" I am playing with some bones in my hand I am thinking of an unprejudieced land I am living in the memories of today they want to wake me, but I think "no way!" and the stars are falling into my hands like angels, maybe heavenly send and a dead horse is standing right next to me then it's asking "where's that land of the free?" I am washing my hands in tears and blood then it's raining into my soul and into my flat I am standing infront of a flag I am freezing 'cause it's cold in my heart there's a gun, I remember it all first a shoot and then I fall I am playing with the lifes of my friends I am thinking if you can see the sense I am washing my memories out of my brain try to forget. try to drive myself insane at the bottom I am walking alone I am seeing white walls, all at home I am washing the memories out of my shirt where's my trousers? today I'll come too late to work .oOo.....................................................................oOo. no, I don't want to lie ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (c) 11.03.1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) red snow is falling from the sky dropping into my face like blood a rabbit is eating a dead crow the worm in the apple stopped to laugh 'cause the apple is rotten like old meat and outside it is cold an frosty a blue flower droppes into the sea and green fishes are raining from a firecloud an angel is crying behind in the corner and darkness is falling into a lighted room while the mirror falls down only your face is breaking I am crying tears of blood in my memories the dead crow is flying away with an apple and the worm is eating the rabbit someone is holding my hand while I look around I see myself falling I hit the road and break through a window green blood is dropping out of my open wounds then my mind is flying away and there is no reflection anymore when I look into the mirror .oOo.....................................................................oOo. und das Licht erblickte ihn ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (c) 11.03.1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) grn karrierte R”cke liegen nachdenklich ordentlich gefalten neben ihrerselbst w„rend tote V”gel gegen Himmel fliegen um im Sonnenlicht zu verglhen Telefone leuten nicht mehr seit sie stromlos in Ecken stehen und doch h”re ich die Klingeln leise meinen Namen flstern wie die Geliebte bevor sie sich rauchend in ihre schtzenden Gedanken zurckzieht der Apfel f„llt vom Baum in den See der Trostlosigkeit w„rend ich versuche meine Sorgen in der Frhstcksmilch zu ertr„nken fliegen grn-blaue Teddyb„ren unbeeindruckt dessen lachend durch die Luft Gedanken schallen durch den Raum um in meinem Ged„chnis verloren zu gehen Echos der Vergangenheit hallen wie helle Blitze durch meinen K”rper zusammenzuckend liege ich unter dem Bett meiner Erlebnisse von Erinnerungen erdrckt und versuche vergessend die Zukunft zu erblicken bevor mich der Tod wie eine Ohnmacht bef„llt .oOo.....................................................................oOo. gefhlslose Regungen - Teil 1 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (c) 14.03.1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) Ameisen klettern die W„nde empor auf der Suche nach dem Morgen und versenken ihre kleinen K”rper im trben Wasser des Vergessens um das Gestern nicht frchten zu mssen .oOo.....................................................................oOo. denken ~~~~~~ (c) M„rz 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) im Gedanken verlohren saá er auf seinem Bett und versuchte sich zu erinnern was er denken wollte .oOo.....................................................................oOo. I really hope you enjoyed reading it, if you liked them you are welcome to contact me for exchanging impressions or just to get hold of more of my feelings and thoughts... thank you! (In fact you are also welcome to contact me if you didn't like them...) .oOo.....................................................................oOo. following files are available: rbk-9345.lit 45k my poetry, lyrics and thoughts from 1993-1995 rbk-9601.lit 20k my first collection for 1996 rbk-9602.lit 24k my second collection for 1996 rbk-9603.lit 21k my third collection for 1996 rbk-9604.lit 22k abstract - my forth collection for 1996 (this file)