%%WZ1 Wizy My Empty Existance. I have searched for my soul in religion, And I have lost it, I have searched for my soul in science, And I have lost it, I have searched for years to find something to believe in, And I dont believe it exists for me, I have wanted the ease of knowing there is a god, and an afterlife, And i dont, I have needed to understand where we came from, why we are here, and where we are going, And I only know that i dont know anything, I want to believe in something, i need to have faith in something, I am lost in the emptyness of my non-belief. %%END %%WZ2 Wizy Enough reason to hate you. Your stupidity only reminds me of your ignorance, Your unending arrogance only annoy's me more, Your body leaves much to be desired, Your mind makes me wonder what is happening to the school's, your insults only make me laugh, Your job can be done by an invertibrate, Your overwhelmingly moronic views of life and the world around you only makes it worse, I hate you, just for you. %%END %%WZ3 Wizy Thoughts of Time. Time escapes me, I do not feel its binds. My dreamtime, I leave the profane existance of humanity, and feel times grip on me fading. I see death's hold on my soul vanish. Past, present, and future are as one. Nothing is out of my reach now, anything and everything is possible. All is joined into one realm, a feeling of greatness, an air of power all mighty falls over my body. The wieght of time off of my back, i am free to move about within this divine realm, no longer concerned about when something happened, but just that it happened. A life ruled by events, not time. I no longer look for death around every corner. My only fear is that I will awake from this state, maybe more enlightened, but none the less confined to a lifetime of fear for my life, and thoughts of time. %%END %%WZ4 Wizy Understanding it The threads by which our time is woven are thinly spun. Making them fragile, and maellable. Its maker, long since gone, we only have our thoughts and our observations to guide us through it. %%END %%WZ5 Wizy You Everything I did was for you, Everything I ever liked was you, Everything I ever needed was you, Everything I ever wanted was you, All I got from you was hurt, All you did was ignore me, All I ever wanted from you was you, All you ever gave me was pain, All I need now is the will to leave, All I need now is the means yo forget, All I need now is to get away, All I need now is your help, I need you You are my everything, You are all I need, Without you I will hurt, Without you I will want, Without you I will die, You will listen, You must understand, You can love me, You will love me, I need you to love me, I dont want to loose you, I dont want to hurt you, I dont want to want you, I dont want to be ignored, You can love me, You do love me, You will love me, This pain that i feel is because of you, This ned that I have is you, This love That i feel is for you, We will love eachother, We will be together, We will, I love you, You will love me. %%END %%WZ6 Wizy You Dont Know Shit! You think im mad, You Know im crazy, You dont know shit!, You think you know me, You think you care, You think you want me to know you, You dont know, You dont know you, You dont need me, You need help, You dont deserve me, Do you think you know, Do you think you need, Do you think?, No, You dont know shit! %%END %%DM1 Dalamar the Dark Alone I'm all alone, just me and my mind... Wondering why I was so cruel and unkind. Cruel and unkind to one who was always true.. Always willing to set aside the stupid things I do. Even though I hurt you, and caused you pain... You were always there for me, to show me the way. Yet I took you for granted, and tossed you away... All on one horrible Winter's day. Without you now, without your love... I'm all alone, looking for help from above. Without your touch, without you here... I'm all alone, with my greatest fear. I'm all alone, just me and my day... Wondering how to get over Brenda Kaye. %%END %%DM2 Dalamar the Dark Memories All by myself, with nothing to behold... Not a picture, not a poem, not a piece of gold. Nothing but memories... Memories.. how they can help, or how they can haunt... When it's all you have, every little memory counts. Whether it's just your special scent, or how you smile, They all keep me going that extra mile. Your touch, your glance, even your voice.. Makes me wonder why I made my choice. Your eyes, your lips, even your hair... And you wonder why I care. Memories.. how they can hurt, or how they can ease pain... Your beauty, your affection, even your tears... They are all enough to take me from my greatest fears. My memory of you will always be strong... And it will last forever long. I love you... forever and ever. %%END %%DM3 Dalamar the Dark The Only Love Love is a many splendored thing, Said some fools to me one day..... For they had never had their true love reft away. With the rage of a hurricane, or the terror of a typhoon, With the crying barrage as I crawled to my room... And at the end, I didn't have you. Searching for my soul from far and wide, knowing that it had no place to hide. I know which way my heart does lay, and I think about her every minute of the day... My love for you is here, deep in my heart and mind... Even though sometimes, it's just too hard to find. Though you may not believe, or you may even fear... Just know, that I'll always be here. Even if my love fades, which it may someday do... No matter how deep, or even how true... Just remember... I'll always love you. %%END %%DM4 Dalamar the Dark Wish I wish I knew what was in your heart and mind... I wish I knew why you choose to leave me behind. God only knows how hard I've tried... How much I've thought, and how much I've cried. I wish I knew just what to do... To get you to say the words "I love you." I wish I knew how to prove it to you... That I really mean it when I say "I love you." Wishes - they just never come true... I guess that's why I don't have you. To be my life, to be my light... I wish I knew how to have you in my arms tonight, And not in the arms of my greatest fright. Because no matter what he says about love to you... He could never match the love that comes from ME to YOU. %%END %%DM5 Dalamar the Dark Words Words cannot express the way I feel... They only come out with the pain of steel. No matter what I try to say... It always seems to come out the wrong way. Words cannot express my pain... Since I've lost you, my heart has gone away. There's not much left to live for... But I'll still push on every single day. My vision clouded, my mind a blank... My words attacking like a tank. How can I hurt someone so dear... It's all just so unclear. Maybe someday you'll come back... And I'll be quicker to listen, Instead of quick on the attack... I miss you so much... your words, your scent, and especially your touch. Probably because I love you so damn much. %%END %%DO1 Demosthenes Bastard Ghetto aggression Midnight confession You're the filthy one I'm the holy son I oppress the undeserving You are one that may be turning Deserving one day But until then I hold you down With my system and the ink from my pen Because I rule this town %%END %%DO2 Demosthenes Codex of Life Look into it Answers are held On its lonely pages Cracked into pieces Falling around your weary feet You are tired so rest And take a seat Time has made it old And when old decay comes Decay destroys And when destroyed in our world No coming back On a thin line Cracking at first I'm about to explode I'm about to burst And when you see the way Shown on the old cracked pages around your feet That will be the day You will be ready with the king's seat Ready for the throne And all its responsibility You will have seen most %%END %%DO3 Demosthenes Gun Ever had a gun pulled on you? You have no idea what to do? Run and hide Jump to one side To dodge what is coming Your mind crumbling In your pants you piss Hoping the gunman will miss Feel the heat past your ear See this Feel it and then hear Blam blam Don't listen to rules Made by Uncle Sam I've been there Yes I have Sweat in my hair Gun in the air Bullets on their way Get the hell out of there %%END %%ME1 Mister E. Angelfuck i don't need to hear those words you could never say i don't want to know what's in your soul... i've seen your kind before... isn't it true that the lies you breath make your lips taste just like shit? but this time it's your own heart that will suffer and bleed... i'm above your petty little abuse... i can see right through your pathetic excuse... lie to him now, when he holds you in his arms... make him spit when he touches your lips and i know all the beersluts in the world will love you for making me the fool... but i don't care, i know who i am and i know the bitch you are... and how you tricked emotion to believe that you ment so much to me... (c)mysterious productions 1996 literary scene revival %%END %%ME2 Mister E. 0896 Lit Colly starting my colly this month with two cents.... ;) enjoy the literature, send all questions, answers, requests, and hate mail in e:mail ONLY! revival@one.net two cents this strange summer seems so strong... through a bad boon and passeth through i found the sky in a lost hope of another score... i know the value and the beauty forever restored within the dull moments i watch the people sleeping, walking, loving and fighting... and i no longer wait for winter anymore... a double deuce of life is what we need... to forget long, wasted days for every summer for every fourth of july for every day i remember how we used to fly now it seems like no one ever tries... august breath and dawn creeping into the room... it's time to wait on another two cent day... ---------------------- in the dank silence before the sun tastes the first breath of light i made the forbidden mistake to blow out the candle god should... weak through the pains blown to dry bones frozen and brittle tired of being told what to do...- --------------------- falling asleep, trying to make myself jerk back to another dream to float pass and never have another person slam books by my head... -------------------- shut my eyes when death comes to take me away again, gold coins on my eyes -------------------- winter saustice summer forgotten into a sleeping generation under water we do not breath as the ice moves we move too and we're lost like this... in the things we do and in what we say i don't believe in humanity as long as humanity can't believe in me... praying for the time the winter sautice comeon, comeon... to wipe summer's path... from my face wishing for snows to freeze my veins so a summer sun can melt my heart- -------------------------- 1969 will you believe now that our dreams have turned into monsters... is it so hard to remember the mistakes the mistakes and lost effort of the calendar in love... leaving the blue midnight for the solemn tranquil twilight waiting... forever waiting getting high all day seems like the only way touching heaven touching god... through the rambling daybreak into another heartache... wishing... i am always wishing there is no dream without it's price forgiven within lost without craving a voice to sing another summer of love- ------------------------ not another for when... no hearing..... listening to the silence as it blows bye... waiting for a god to tread upon this sacrilige as we deny our faith- neither the giver or the reciever... only a middleman in the waitful August sun growing older as we slowly understand and begin to believe..... ----------------------- i lost my childhood to the disease i lost my memories to the disease i lost and gained and lost again but here in the grip of fear... i made the effort i made the demons i made a hell better to be a victim than a victor... all my demons sleep --------------------- i don't feel young anymore... remembering the dry baked soil we tried... handcuffed in the delusional state forgetting the lesson all the beautiful people said... too many sluts too many wide open legs and none for me... what can't i see? this disease that makes me look at myself as i never should... her hand seems so icey cold... and i realize she sees nothing in me in this chalk-outlined world in this cold place... i searched for substance i searched and looked and desired... but the flesh is weak made love to my hand before i went to bed- ------------------------ a smile and a cute ass not enough for a pretty face not enough for a weak laugh to feel emotionally detatched from this earth and all of it's dust not enough to eat on... not enough to buy the joint i walked half way to smoke... yet... when there is a reason there will always be that hope...- ------------------------ when the day fades and the evening pours out from the city's breath and the smell of exhaust hovers over and the taste of cheap cigarettes dries my lips and all the people that, at one time, said they cared... don't care anymore- i wish i wish i wish i could of opened my eyes to some other day... it's so hard when the body is contorted through a depression as manic as i must seem a smile must be cast upon as bleak as i must seem a laugh must be forsakened upon golden in the day, but the day is no more... and all the good people i knew i don't know anymore exhausted wasted and ready for when i grow old and prepared for and ready and listening to the old floorboards waiting for life to take me and death to leave me behind- ---------------------------- pissed off at the world again... when people stare and laugh, telling me who i should be pissed off at the world again... no one gives a fuck and we're all rats in a cage... pissed off at the world again... at the ways society will swallow us up at the meathods, the nazis that run our lifes, abuse some weak hope inside our hearts... pissed off that i can't live the life i want to live pissed off that there's always something in my way pissed off that none of you are listening and this all means nothing... anyways....- ------------------------ i wish it was easy to make a wish and have it come true i try to make the best of things... when my best isn't good enough and there's always some asshole with a gun making the rules... i swallow my hope before it drowns me, and the life i live never seems complete... wether the man comes down to the heat... and no one cares so how's it going to be? a lifetime of doubt... or a lifetime of not caring? --------------------------- hope to stay alive... not like the war or the peace between friends- listen before i make like a bird, i don't have much to say- we are born like the smallest star, we are buried like the greatest sun... there is no in-betweens or any weapons to lead afar... and i say we are all dreams we are all dreams, and the nightmares we forgive are only the best things we have done- the hope i have given up reveals what is hiding within a souless depth it is here that i must laugh for when the soul grows wings the spirit will also fly- i am a bird... i am a bird... and i don't need i don't need anything anymore- anything... (c)mysterious productions 1996 all posers will be crushed ---------------------------- "we're all cars" some people say... and all i want to be all i want to be is a cadilac... like a sedan four door crusin... groovin to some spicy tune to some golden rythm of a manmade engine ---------------------------- lost spirit world... killing inside us what will redeem hopeless void darkens the sparrows of the lord's forgivness and yet... i look far i look behind and find the diamond universe and the words never said, and the poetry never written... crying from the lessening spoken in the mixed twilight remembering the souls of the forgotten regained- (c)mysterious productions 1996 revival international %%MO1 Mortos Love and Pain she says she'll die by 21... such a beautiful face, so young, so sweet she says she understands what most do not so sweetly, she seeks premature death a voyage into the beyond.. to experience what this world has not to offer. and with her eyes fixed to mine, she asks "do you want to die, too?" and a smile spreads slowly across her face.. i look at her, with a shallow glance and then a stare so long.. i feel what she is.. i know what she means. so i coldly reply, "yes". so like two precocious wanderers into the unknown, we decide to experience it together. %%END %%MO2 Mortos Sorrow i need to fill the yawning chasm in my soul i need to find solace in this bleak world of sorrow if only i could feel her tender embrace if only i could hear a sound other than my own quiet sobbing and the hollow, empty notes of a piano- slowly, sadly playing in my dreams... knowing only despair, and the faint memories of before i pray for release from this dreary sonata which echoes endlessly in my mind raping me of my pride %%END %%LS1 Lord Science Untitled i manifest the real i don't pack steel God is coming back that's the real deal i've got it in for the frauds the fake and phoney talking all that bologna you don't even know me so it's best to think twice before you touch a mic or start to write i've seen the light and now i'm shining it on you exposing your crew no individuality i've got originality it's the thug mentality a little black kid with the skill to get rid of any fronting perpetrators i don't like instigators the situation is getting sticky emcees suck like a hickey i'm a dope rhyme so kick me like the sign on your back there's a war going on so attack and don't be afraid of what's evil i crush imposters like satan under my foot i like a dirty beat like soot %%END %%RB1 Reebok Introduction _________ ________ ________ _______ _______ ____ _____ ) -__) __( __( - ) ) (/ / / \ _(__ _(__ \ | \ / |____| \__ (_ ( - \ \__(\ \ ______tREMOR)_____) )______\)_______\ ______/_______/ /_____\______ ( bbs: +43-1-8928997/8928998 = ReeBoK = reebok@mozicart.or.at ) \ Severin-Stephan Kittl - Hollergasse 27/19 - A-1150 Vienna/Austria / `-----------------------------------------------------------------' .oOo.....................................................................oOo. Welcome to another poetry file in 1996. It includes some poetry and lyrics from me. Written or finished in the last time. All written words are (c) 1996 by Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) and have not to be republished in any way without a written permission of the author! I entitle this collection " free from sin " .oOo.....................................................................oOo. %%END %%RB2 Reebok Anger dumb dumb dumb a n g e r dumb a n g e r dumb dumb a n g e r dumb dumb a n g e r a n g e r dumb a n g e r dumb dumb a n g e r a n g e r a n g e r a n g e r dumb a n g e r a n g e r a n g e r f u c k the society, f u c k the law f u c k stupidity, f u c k you all! %%END %%RB3 Reebok Hostile I am hostile hostile my life hostile of society hostile by law cross me and burn my body hostile the allmighty state born hostile lived hostile died hostile and who cares? %%END %%RB4 Reebok Stoned Lying Faces .sS$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$Ss. $$' `$$ $$ my body was made - my mind was given $$ $$ never tried to ask for the goddamn reason $$ $$ am I real? or just a dream? $$ $$ what the fuck has even ever real been? $$ $$ they talk about freedom - they talk about rights $$ $$ but that's all lies - the word built up on cries $$ $$ I didn't ask you for your stupied rules $$ $$ made to lead pupets - made to lead fools $$ $$ I have a free mind - or at least I think so $$ $$ don't wast your lies on me - I know what they're for $$ $$ I've been calling you humans - not just masses $$ $$ but all it seems - you are all just stoned lying faces $$ $$, ,$$ `ıS$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$Sı' %%END %%RB5 Reebok You Never Know what's Coming Up and I am walking through the fields through the endless fields of sorrow but I am walking not alone but maybe I will tomorrow you never know what's coming up a secret friend - a hidden trap you never know what's going on till the day, when you'll be gone and I am singing 'bout rebellion 'bout rebellion in my head but I am not really a rebel but maybe I am just mad you never know what's coming up a secret friend - a hidden trap you never know what's going on till the day, when you'll be gone and I am believing in resistance put my resistance against the world but there is nothing really resistant but maybe ther will be something one day you never know what's coming up a secret friend - a hidden trap you never know what's going on till the day, when you'll be gone %%END %%RB6 Reebok No! kangarooooos jump whoap! spoing! jump whoap! spoing! jump whoap! spoing! jump whoap! spoing! jump whoap! spoing! jump whoap! spoing! jump whoap! spoing! jump whoap! spoing! jump whoap! spoing! hmmm... zzZZzZzzzZZZzZzZ %%END %%RB7 Reebok Authority authority - authority what the fuck it means to me? authority - authority there really is no sense to see! authority - authority where is the land of the free? authority - authority oh no, for me it cannot be! fuck the authority fuck the a u t h o r i t y f u c k the authority f f f u u u c c c k k k off! %%END %%RB8 Reebok Lonely stands the treasure full of Gold lonely stands the treasure full of gold in t h e h i d d e n c a v e l o n e l y stands the treasure full of gold in the hidden cave lonely s t a n d s t h e t r e a s u r e full of gold in the hidden cave lonely stands the treasure f u l l o f g o l d in the hidden cave l o n e l y s t a n d s t h e t r e a s u r e full of gold in the hidden cave lonely s t a n d s the treasure f u l l o f g o l d in the hidden cave lonely s t a n d s the treasure full of gold i n t h e hidden c a v e lonely s t a n d s the treasure full of gold i n t h e h i d d e n c a v e l o n e l y s t a n d s t h e treasure full of gold in the h i d d e n cave l o n e l y stands the treasure full o f g o l d i n t h e h i d d e n cave lonely s t a n d s the treasure full of g o l d in the h i d d e n cave ok, we know that now, but why the fuck is it standing there? %%END %%RB9 Reebok (...) painless time is passing by another moment you want to die another sign of unseen life another act while suicide to fight the law to fight the state seems useless rhyme but not too late %%END %%RB10 Reebok The Common Sense the fbi - the cia and all the other shit today they serve us good they surve us well they'll surve us and will rest in hell the fatherland - the kkk and all the other shit today they lead us good they lead us well they'll lead us and will rest in hell the government - the church as well as also all the other shit today they influence us good they influence us well they'll influence us and will rest in hell besides that all, I ask you now they are just humans, did you know? %%END %%RB11 Reebok Closing all this poems and thoughts are expressions of feelings and happenings, of fear and hope, pleasure and pain. they are a part of life and we are a part of them. read them, read between the lines and try to take them for serious. then you possibly will find your own very special meaning in them or you just understand them by reading them. critics are welcome! %%END