help me i'm drowning

i wake from this altered reality i call home..
grasping for the last breath left in my lungs..
tired and weak i move along and try to survive..
from this hell i call life..
i'm losing all that i have and all i've ever withheld..
i can't tell what's right or wrong..
or what to do with this thing..
it controls me..
it takes over my feelings..
it hurts me deep down inside where it matters most..
whatever it may be, it's dark and lonely..
looking for someone to feed upon..
reaching down in their soul and pulling out nothing..
taking advantage of the weak..
supplying hatred for those around them..
it knows my weak points..
it can tell when i hurt..
it knows about my past and what destroy's me most..
someone please help me..i'm not asking for much..
once again..i'm drowning..
                             flood!(angst!emerge!)