[?7hSelf defense Today- Today I shot a man. A man who sought me out. A man who found me in my sleep- One in whom I saw a threat- I saw a threat in this rival, one who threatens and does harm. A man who lives his life by death. A foe of mine, this man became, I wish't could be a friend- an acquaintance or neighbor. Merely one who came to my room and drew his knife, and sought to drive it to my heart. I could not see how to save his life- I awoke that moment to see him dying- a horror fixed on his face- contorted and fixed on his bloodsoaked shirt- cold as death, and pale as horror. I killed this man in self defense, a defense which kills one's inner self. Today I shot a man- A man who sought me out. Yet now I seek myself, now that I have killed myself. [Apothecary]