[?7hPast Tenses

the sky had been blue as the wings of a jay
domed and perfect, enclosing the world,
protecting it from evil
like an azure parent
on the day i found out what you had done
when did your sky shatter?

when did the satan storm into your world
and kill all hope?
when did the black rain come in from the crack
in the walls of the cerulean bubble
that kept safe the city of your emotions?

that city is not even a ruin now
all that is left is the empty shell
that it was housed in
and the openings in your wrists
where you let the serum of life
drip onto the stark cold floors
of some harsh uncaring
glisteningly white room

i look up at the traitorous sky
who failed to keep its promise
and through a blurry haze
of crystal tears
i wonder:
are you happy now?
did it ease your pain?

for my pain is only beginning
knowing that now, when i speak of you,
for some reason i will never understand
and you can never explain,
i can only use past tenses.


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